Vanessa Bryant will grace the cover of PEOPLE magazine this month for their “Women Changing The World” issue. In the cover story, she talks about her mourning process and her unbelievable strength after the loss of her husband, Kobe Bryant, and the 13-year-old daughter Gianna. She also opens up about what life is like now.

“I can’t say that I’m strong every day,” she tells PEOPLE. “I can’t say that there aren’t days when I feel like I can’t survive to the next.”

The world still remembers the tragic helicopter crash that killed the NBA Legend and eight others in Calabasas, California, last January.

“This pain is unimaginable [but] you just have to get up and push forward,” she says. “Lying in bed crying isn’t going to change the fact that my family will never be the same again. But getting out of bed and pushing forward is going to make the day better for my girls and for me. So that’s what I do.

Bryant is now head of Granity Studios, Kobe’s multimedia production company that he started to inspire storytelling for younger generations. Earlier this year, she relaunched the Mamba & Mambacita Sports Foundation, a non-profit organization founded through the legacy and memory of Kobe and Gianna. The organization will fund causes that were significant to Kobe throughout his career and creating an equal playing field in sports for both young women and athletes.

Vanessa gives credit to her daughters- Natalia(18), Bianka(4), and Capri(1)- for giving her a reason to smile and giving her hope. “My girls help me smile through the pain. They give me strength,” she shares with PEOPLE.

At the end of the interview, she concludes that all she wants is to make her family proud.

Read the full interview in BSM Magazine Digital Issue